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Another day goes by, the cold is still in my bones, but at least i started a 30 day yoga challenge. Sure, during the weekend i might ignore it (just a little bit, that's what happens when you plan on taking part in hackathons), but it starts nicely. I never really did learn yoga beyond the breathing and i think it's quite important. Traveling by bike to my university is not an option now that some wise guys have decided that february was the perfect time to start exploding the whole street, so that the traffic is so bad that i'd rather walk to school. Still, i'm looking forward to some reason to go biking through the city. Since i can't do that every day, a little bit of yoga on the side might help. I might also help my poor heart, that's going crazy. How does one fall out of love with someone they haven't had any significant time with for years on end? (hey, those few hours do not count as significant time. nor did the time in the beginning count, except for that evening of storytelling, which was quite nice) It's getting to me. So maybe focusing on meditation will help. Either way, my head is clearer today.

I had to turn down a potential hourly job as a freelancer. Hey, i might be available, but that does not mean i'm desperate (yes, i am talking about freelancing, but now that i think of it, everyone might interpret it as being about relationships... well, it's valid either way). I'm not a slave and my mental power should be used for building stuff, not for google-ing stuff for people who are too lazy to look stuff up for themselves. I mean, would you really pay someone actual money to do something you could have done while you were getting your money out of your pocket? Those tasks had nothing to do with an actual ability. They were just for rich people who don't know who to pay 50 cents to do a 10 minute job. And being 'on call' for this kind of stuff? No, thank you. I will not sit on the edge of my seat waiting for some lame-o to write/call me on skype to tell me to google them a product or a service that's so basic even their kid could do it from their own phone. I'm doing that already for other reasons (well, not actually, i'm tired of waiting on the edge of my seat for people to react to what i tell them. who cares when/if they react? they can react in a year, for all i care. yes, 'the woman', i'm talking about you, you stuck-up event organized for pseudo women who pretend to be real people by spending more than half of their waking time choosing clothes and putting up makeup). I don't get these guys who say 'oh, look at us, we're so glamorous' and they're actually shitty people who can't answer a lame question. And then to expect me to give you money? Haha, yes, that was a funny joke. Sure, a joke that lasted for a year. Damn their stuckupness. Do not do business with that kind of people who endorse each other in their tiny circle, but are actually really lame when faced with an actual challenge. It's the same thing on the 'blogosphere' and the same thing in academia. Some guys/gals gang up and support each other and then start shouting 'oh, look, we are so awesome' and nobody cares. Because you're not awesome when you say that about yourself or your friend says that about you because you say that about them. You're awesome when people who meet you can't stop themselves from coming closer to see if you really are like that and then they can't help themselves and have to tell you. Because you're awesome. When that happens, it means you're not a shitty person who can't answer a simple question on their social media page from one of their potential customers.

All right, now that that's over, a little bit of time for my story. I kinda' know my setting, i 'built' a house and all of its heating/venting installation for a project a for a class two years ago. Almost two years ago. I can't believe it's been so long. I think i need to revise those plans, but the main idea is the same. Even if we'll have more rooms (possibly), the idea is that the main area for most of the events will be the school and its surroundings.

Yes, it's a school, it doesn't yet have a name, it's a tiny school, more like a permanent camp. Each class lives there for one entire year (no vacations, sorry) and there is only one class. One age group. After a few years, the older kids come by for 'experience exchange', to see how the program has improved and teach the new kids what they wished they'd known as they began their adventures. The staff (teachers, mostly) live there at all times. There is no 'magic', but there is a lot of technology and a lot of nature, which for me is the same thing as magic. The school is at the edge of a small village in the mountains, surrounded by forests, next to a river, in its tiny valley. All the slopes around are steep, but gorgeously green for the most part of the year (the summer drought does not extend its greedy paws between the mountains), the river is quite angry at times, full and dangerous, there are cows on pastures and sheep, wild animals in the woods and a very narrow access road. There is only one way out, towards 'civilization'. There are many possible details, i might get into them after i find my project.

Uuu, what's next?