Roll

Two days ago i took a decision. A very optimistic and interesting decision. Today i took one more. Someone asked me what i want to accomplish by going to the 5MS events and having speeches there. I answered that i want to be one of the TED speakers one day. I have no idea yet what i would speak about, probably about the environment or concrete or both, since they are both fascinating subjects that i know a lot more about that your average university Joe or Jane. And they are both crucial for a smart development, at least until we end up with an ASI (who will either solve all of our problems or kill us both - well, they both would mean solving all of our problems). Leaving that to the side a bit, my other brilliant idea that i had today (i mean, decision, i've had the idea itself since i was a kid!) was to write a bestseller. A book, obviously. And no, not for the money, the money would just be a bonus. They are unimportant for this goal. My point is that i want to create a book (or series of) so captivating and fascinating and lovable and smart and still accessible that every kid (and young adult, such as me) would love to read it! And learn from it. Indirectly, of course. Kids don't read to learn stuff, they read for entertainment (at least i did). Kids (and young adults) don't usually read mostly because they think that books are boring and they have other, 'better' things to do. But! if you manage to write something compelling and fascinating, you'll have a Lord of the Rings or a Harry Potter or a Game of Thrones that has millions of people waiting, breath unabated, for you to release the new book in the series (well, not so much with Lord of the Rings, it's only become really fashionable lately).
Why did i choose kids and young adults? Well, there are several reasons, among which the most important: young people are the future. Also, i'm young myself and it would be a bit childish to try to write for older people, since i'm not old enough to have their expertise and experience and i don't yet 'get' them. Besides, i like writing informally and i don't do bullshit. So if you want something seemingly 'elevated' and complicated, i'm not the person to talk to. I'll ask you so many questions that you'll end up doubting your own preconceived ideas (which is actually a good thing generally, but not for those in the situation where their belief systems are crumbling from the inside without a way to keep them up).

So that's my decision and i'll keep up with it, in parallel with all the other stuff that i'm doing and writing and thinking. I think that i only got this idea and this drive because i've been writing in the past few days. Writing useless stuff makes it easier to concentrate on the important things when they show up. Like noticing (and writing down) an idea such as this. Even without emotional support from anybody (well, you know what i mean), i can begin this journey. And the support will show up when i'm out of breath and need someone to give me a sip of water and an arm to keep me going. Or maybe it won't, but who cares anyway. It's not like my mind depends on anyone else's health but mine. Well, it does to an extent, but i can choose who those people are. Either way, the beginning is the worst, as i always say, but let's consider this 'blog' the beginning. Since it's anonymous, i can make my character sketches here, i can imagine the lands/landscapes they live and act in, their interactions, their history, the societies they live in (oh, the society is such a crucial part of a good novel, that's what many meh writers don't get. it's not enough to shape a character, the society it lives in is like another character. it breathes, it has emotions and it also reproduces somehow - over long periods of time, of course - it is alive! and important for a good story - there is no good novel that i can think of right now that hasn't developed the society 'section' of the book). I could use some kind of a software for this (ywriter is just the nicest thing), but i would like to start slow, not stress about for characters and stuff. Once i imagine them, most of them anyway, i can start filling out their 'files'. Enough planning, let's get this baby rolling!