Planes

What have I learned today that's new? Well, i learned that my friend is in London and I had no idea. I want to go to London as well. And maybe even meet him there, that would be nice. But that information is not really relevant, not something that I usually consider 'learning'. I have no idea, so i should better start, right?

Apparently, most single parents in Japan work. That's great, but it still doesn't qualify for 'the more you know'. I realized that almost two years ago i knew more about the Oxford citations and indexes and other irrelevant things than I do today. I'm learning the APA style, though. It seems to be quite frequent. I never used it before, so being exposed to it is quite useful. I'm using my online research skills to find relevant articles and statistics for this course on family, gender and something more. By the time i'm done, i'll know a lot more about this domain than i ever intended or needed to know. Odd.

I did look for flights from Cluj-Napoca to London (actually Luton, which is a bit further away) and the funniest thing is that the flight fare from Romania to the UK is the same as the train from Luton to London. Why? Well, why the hell do i want to go to the UK anyway? Maybe once I start earning a bit more and I wouldn't feel like a total cheapo when visiting that extremely expensive country. I mean, i've been to Paris and Hamburg, but it's much worse. Maybe because this time i would understand most of what people say. The nice thing would be to meet Amy again, but she never wrote after returning home. I should have asked her for an email address. We got along so nicely, i bet she would be happy if i visited her in London. Oh well. Right now, this feels like a very bad idea especially since i realized that, no matter how my friend takes the news of my intention of visiting him in the UK, it's still bad. If he thinks it's about him, why would he? I've wanted to visit UK for a long time and there are many more things and people to see there (for example, my sweet friend from Spain who i met in Germany three years ago). But if he doesn't take it personally, it's still bad, because i want to see him first and foremost, in his new 'habitat'. Until this conflict is resolved, i'll not take the decision to go. I calculated my costs and it would take 20 hours of full pay on odesk for me to be able to cover the costs to go there and come back. That's not so much in numbers, but i'll be lucky if i get to work that many hours (and thankful). So, with that goal in mind, i'll use my free time to contribute as a freelancer, to write and improve, to bring the most value to my clients, who are extremely important, almost as important as my school work.

This new view on things changes my priorities a little. I won't have so much time to dedicate to my garden, even though i'd like to emphasize the wedding accessories and collaborate with more brides this year. Considering that my sister is getting married as well, that's a lot of pressure. But that's good, because i love pressure and having work to do, it makes things so much clearer and gives me a reason to whine for lack of time. When i have time and do nothing with it is much, much worse. This way, i can improve in many areas at the same time and occupy my mind with useful things, not dreams about 'one day'. My mind is so clear now. Wow.

I love this feeling, it's rare, but i think it's connected to the fact that i've been writing these things here in the past few days. I haven't been writing much, just above the minimum 750 that were theoretically recommended in order to shift beyond daily moaning and to get into production mode. If i keep this up, i might enjoy the benefits of this for many more days to come. I'm conscious of the fact that the same thing applies to physical exercise and I want to do it, but my decision has not been serious enough. On Monday i'll go to that sports center in the school next to my university, to see if there's something i can do there. No matter whether i'll buy a bike tomorrow. Although i would love to get myself a bike tomorrow. It would make many things so much easier... Too bad i have to get up at 7. Uh. I'll just go back to sleep when i get home.